ALTER EGO

[INTRO]

I keep my secrets tight ’cause once I start talking,
Nigga, I ain’t gon’ finish.
I gave my heart to things
That ain’t deserve my time.

I remember little ma, tryna figure out my dream,
Hannah Montana get to playing on the screen.

Look—
Thought I figured it out though,
Like I was gonna be the next pop artist.

Now I’m spitting like Jay-Z,
Ain’t no Jay, but I am Z.

I never wore the wig,
But nigga, I had lived two different lives.

Now instead, I was raised around my people,
Now I’m living with the whites.

Experience never perfect,
But I think I lived alright.

They say my momma ain’t perfect,
But I know she raised me right.

Saw her do it all alone for a while,
Strong enough, so she kept her tears inside.

I heard her praying for so long,
I know that I am destined.

’Cause anything my momma pray for,
That shit gonna happen.

I’m working ’round the clock
’Cause I know it’s versions of me that really need it.

All them days sitting up confused,
What was I to do?

Please don’t ask me how I’m doing
If you don’t really wanna know.

’Cause I done wasted too much time
Battling this shit alone.

People getting weird on me,
It’s crazy how they switch on me.

I’d rather them leave
Before they try to steal my place when I ain’t looking.

And this shit can get deeper than the music.

Keep my healed wounds closed
’Cause I don’t need them to keep bleeding.

Instead, cop a Maybach
Where my seats is bred red,

But I really love my bread in green.

I’m really loving Christmas,
It’s the season of payback and giving.

But this season,
I ain’t got shit to give.

God gave me so many blessings,
Gotta use my talent just to keep these bitches quiet.

And anybody coulda stepped over me,
But they rather trample me,

And throw my name in the dirt
Like I’m the one who showed them life was worth living.

Thirteen, thinking that I ain’t gon’ make it,
So I sat with a blade
Hoping that shit end today.

I had to shut out all the noise
Just to get to where I am.

Now they telling me to heal
Like I don’t know where I had came from.

And I ain’t talking financial—
I’m talking about the mental.

As a lounge, I started praying,
Now I’m twenty-two with shit to prove.

But I don’t need your acceptance,
Keep your comments to yourself.

’Cause I ain’t really tryna hear it.

Mama said,
“You home, yo safe space,
So never carry yo issues in the street with you.”

Never tell yo business,
’Cause the people want the scoop on you.

And I’m coming from the trenches,
I’m just speaking from experience.

I’m not focused on my past,
But it’s been a blessing seeing who I was last
And who I am today.

I do a lot of shit in silence,
So I know it’s a couple people
Waiting to clap for me.

And I know y’all used to melodies,
So now I’m spitting,
I catch ’em in a daze.

I came way too far
To let them make me choose.

’Cause the option of life or death
Was waiting for me on my stoop.

So now living all I wanna do.

’Cause now I gotta win
For parts of me that always thought that I’d lose.

My family pick me up
And dust me off every time I fall.

A lot of misconceptions about my respect.

I’ll risk it all.

And I’m not sure what God had put me here for,
But He never made me mute.

So this heat I write
Got birthed through the roof.

It’s ’bout time I put my foot
On some of these bitches’ necks.

’Cause a lot of y’all been talking shit
For way too long,

And I ain’t lifting
’Cause I let y’all breathe
When all y’all did me wrong.

Ain’t a bitch I been scared of.

I bet y’all ain’t even know
I was faced with fire.

So I gotta let them bridges burn.

[OUTRO — ]

So I will burn anybody
If they disrespecting me.

And if you think it’s safe to mention me—

GRAB YO TEAM.

MEET AT 3.

Got a couple dogs
That’s gon’ slide for me.

Z’s OUT, WE OUT ,

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